wanting

I haven't been very bloggy lately. I've been so busy with life that I haven't taken the time to put anything up. The homesickness has passed and now i'm falling in love with seattle and udub. everything about college is agreeing with me but i can't help but miss something i've never even had, a boyfriend. I see my roommmate and how in love she is and i want that. I just want someone to hold my hand and think I'm beautiful. As a strong independent woman its difficult to admit but i want someone to like me in a way other than friendship. Some girls seem to get them so easily but its never been like that for me. every crush i've ever had has ended in disaster. i suppose when its meant to be it'll happen but the wait is making me lonely.