Two

I’m a little torn these days. I went from a freshman with two friends to a sophomore with one friend to a junior and a senior with so many friends in so many categories it’s impossible to count. All of these friends are great and I love them all with all of my heart. The only problem with that is choices. The choice of which friends you eat lunch with and which friends you invite to parties and which friends you text and call and keep up the constant communication with. I have two main groups, the fantastic and the outsiders. I love them both, they fill up two different parts of me, but sometimes I want one over the other. Its only as simple as a passing mood or what’s on my mind at the moment. I wish I could talk to them both about it openly, how torn I feel at times because the two don’t really mix together, but I realize that that is how it has to be. I need them both so it’s my choice to manage the two together. I love them both equally and they don’t always understand that, but they’ll get used to it if they’re the true friends I find in both groups.