Different

For the first time in my teenage life I think that people can tell that I'm depressed. So much bad crap is happening to my family and its affecting me. I've had so many issues with them in the past and I've dealt with it, but lately the bad crap seems to be consuming me. I can normally mask the harshness of my world and forget it with my friends, but of late its leaking into my persona. I am usually the happiest person around, but now I see myself wanting distance because I don't want to infect the happy people around me. Then I was alone today for a great portion of the day and I realized that not being around the people who can help me through my issues is a huge mistake. I feel like now is the time for me to deal with my issues and work through them with the people I love, who love me. I'm going to let it go now and be myself again.

When I'm depressed I'm going to now recite this list of happy things coming up:
1) Graduation
2) Project Grad
3) Disney Land
4) Olson Road Trip
5) Last summer living at home
6) Leah visiting
7) Living on my own
8) UDUB :D
9) Getting even closer with Chelsea in Seattle
10) Making new friends and keeping in touch with the old ones