Sunday, July 26, 2009
Crush
I don't know what scares me more. That he knows that I like him or that he doesn't. I've had a lot of crushes over my last years of high school. Most of them meaningless and innocent. A fleeting attraction if you will. I've been accused of being boycrazy and an emotional whore, but deep down I'm scared that I'll never find someone who will understand me. I feel like my personality is so out there that it immediately makes men put me in the "friend zone" and I don't want to remain there forever. I see so many happy couples out there and I don't know if I'll ever be one of them. There's this one guy. Lets call him Landon. Its no one people would ever guess, he's older and so unique and comfortable in his own skin. We have so much fun together. I feel like he doesn't judge me or dump me in a category, but I know when I leave here for my new future I'll forget him with time. Out of sight=Out of mind. I don't know who the future holds but I hope he makes me happy, that's all I want, to be happy.
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honey, there's one thing you should know... no matter how crazy, wild, out there and silly you may think you are, there's one person that will think that all that craziness, wildness, and silliness is the most beautiful thing in the world. the person who is meant for you, and who you are meant for, will be not only a lover, but will be your best friend. so whoever the guy is, he won't just 'dump you' in a friend category, but he'll love you for the woman you are and love you as his dearest friend. just be patient, and he'll find you, or you'll find him. and also, this guy will not just 'make you happy' or 'treat you good'. he'll show you that there's more to it than that. but the best advice i could give you is to be patient, my dear. in time you'll see he's worth the wait :)
ReplyDeletelol you used my lovers name. i knew you still liked him =P i KNOW that you will find someone someday. just keep in mind all of the hot washington guys you'll be meeting ;D
ReplyDeletelol thanks you guys :P
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