lavender

Lavender
I smell your sweetness
I can almost taste the fragrance
It fills me up in all the empty places
The holes left behind
The wounds left to fester
The people who have left
Those who’ve hurt me
Now those holes are filled and healed over
The smell has borne me anew
The world has shown me the horrors it can unleash
But the wonders too
And I now know the wonders outweigh the horrors
The lavender has shown me the way home
Back to a world that is clear
A world that speaks true
I take another deep inhale of the sweetness
And I walk away
Away from my salvation
Because I know any longer and I won’t be able to leave
Leave behind what has rescued me
Now I leave it as a memory
Something that I can revisit when I need strength
But something that I won’t need every day to continue on
Because it has healed me
And for this I am eternally grateful